just josh 12/24/21
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I never set out to be a particular way.
I'm just josh. I play instruments, I write songs. I am fascinated by cosmology and quantum field theory, am greatly interested in linguistics and psychology, and my religion is civility and reason.
I used to drink. a lot. It was not helpful. I finally decoupled myself with that weirdness in january 2020. although that aspect of my life is a story unto itself, i no longer struggle with alcohol, at all. its not a fight I am valiantly winning so i can never frame it as such. ill explain that whole thing in a different format at some point. that said I understand addiction and the spell it can have all too well and am empathetic to all who suffer. Its not easy. for anyone. life.
"you dont have to"
the battle is more or less all inside. we cant control shit other than our own behavior and our own intentions. people often suck in the moments you interact with them. you dont have to.
sometimes we suck and we should not pretend we dont lest we never learn and suck unabated.
unmitigated emotionally toxic reactions to lifes inconveniences are beneath our capacity for self control and rarely, if ever appropriate.
this is where it all begins...here ill write stuff that may not make sense and may fail to amuse and or inform you in anyway. proceed accordingly...when the words appear of course...keep living.